questions and answers

good morning, afternoon, evening or night. the flowers i got for my birthday are wilting away and there still in my window. by the way, for those of you who came over, thank you! It was such a great evening. i'm not sure i have anything useful today, but you can never really know if anything you say is going to be useful. so there, i've said something useful, or have i?
yesterday, i was talking to someone about how jesus would be percieved by people if he came to the earth in these times, rather than those times. Would he be the same? Would he walk everywhere, not take a plane or car? would he have 12 disciples from the general area where he came from, or would he have people from all realms of the earth. Who would follow him? If in this day and age he said to people, leave all your wordly possessions and follow me, literally walking with him everywhere he needed to go to preach, would people follow him? I'ts easy to say, i follow christ, because i try to be like him in my life. but could i give up everything i have, not to find those things ever again, to follow christ? it's obvious for those who read the bible with open eyes, that it's not just about giving up your things (and that that's not for everyone), but about giving up certain ideas or feelings, that you once held close to you. about giving up your pride, giving up your anger, giving up your fear, giving up your impulses. the struggle (for me) is, that after you've given up your pride, there's a new pride that was hiding under that one, give up your anger, you'll find new anger, give up your fear, there's new fear, give up your impulses, there's new impulses. How am i to say that my new (for ex.) fear is any better than the first? I feel like the phrase bob dylan used "i was so much older than, i'm younger than that now".
really, im open to any answers or comments that people have, but most likely i will have to learn the answers myself, if i don't, i can't make them my own. thanks for reading!