stretching yourself out of boredom

hi! i have now subscribed to uctv, because i am so constantly confronted with mindless babbling on tv or online that i thought i'd watch something that doesn't necessarily teach me something, but at least keeps my brain from vegetating. i would like some feedback on a thought that entered my mind a couple thousand times today(exageration). Do i come across as if i'm constantly disagreeing with people? that's not what i'm trying to do. i just, really i'm just adding on to what someone says, or showing things in a different light. shouldn't i say what i'm thinking, if it doesn't hurt anyone. and if it does, isn't it their decision to be hurt, if they know i mean well? or is this an egotistical way of thinking? the friends i appreciate most (discussion-wise, if thats a word) are the ones who take what i have to say, trranslate to their own words and then add to that. i hope to acquire this art myself. on the most occassions, i'm just real impulsive, but that's usally because i've thought about things in other moments and have already come to my conclusions about them. so, just because i've come to a conclusion, doesn't mean that someone else's conclusion is wrong, so then why would i state my point? oh, it's an endless life of what to say and what not to say. why am i cursed with this burden of thought?!!! I hope soon people will read my blog and post some responses.
So anyway, as you've come to see if you've read this blog or the ones before it, my goal is not to tell you what's going on in my life, rather what's going on in my mind. Stay tuned to me, there's a real good chance that eventually you'll be able to read the "thoughts of a madman"!!! But hopefully not until Aaron's gone off to college or to travel the world or whatever...